Seperti biasa, when I bumped into my primary school teacher, he always brings this stupid question, one stupid and yet hurtful question. What would be the question? "Eh, sambung belajar ke?' and my answer of course, "urm, not yet cikgu, tapi sekarang saya amik course kat GiatMara Raub, yang atas bukit tu, amik course menjahit". The look, then "Laa.. kenapa awak tak sambung Master, awak dengar cakap cikgu, awak amik Master, lepas tu, awak amik jadi Tutor then, dah lepas Master, awak jadi lecturer' and the conversation was being heard by my dad and he said "kan ayah dah cakap".
Done! that's it! I had enough with this thing. I have better things to do and I have banyak paths dekat depan mata saya then I have to choose and I have choose this path then takkan saya nak berhenti dan terus masuk dan follow what my teacher asked me to do. People could just give advice kan? Tapi yang amik Master tu sapa? Kalau bukan saya? Jikalau lah saya yang amik Master, then, saya terpaksa melalui pelbagai cabaran, nak amik Master bukan sama macam nak amik Bachelor, kata lecturer saya, ia makin susah dan tiga kali lebih susah daripada apa yang dilalui di Bachelor. To be honest, I am not that kind of person yang suka sangat dengan numbers, memang research ada quantitative dan qualitative, memang! saya pun tahu benda tu, tapi I am not good in research. Please, do not burden me with this kinda of thing! I don't like it. Truly.
I am trying my very best to actually pursue what I really want, and I am enjoying myself in my class right now at GiatMara Raub, Fashion and Dressmaking course, I love it very much. I have wonderful friends, I have wonderful teachers and I have great times there. I am enjoying myself. And to be honest, I don't give a fuck about my primary teacher told me. Please, mind your own business. Not that I am not taking criticism but hey, I have my life not, may not be perfect and may not be what people want me to be, but, I actually enjoying myself.
Jangan sampai saya bertindak untuk berbuat sesuatu yang tidak elok, mungkin lari dari rumah, worse, kill my self. May not be the best resort, but if it is the one and only resort, saya tidak teragak-agak, lagi senang kan? Takde orang nak bercakap lepas tu.